8.21.11

I had a dream last night that I was standing on the edge of a cliff, ready to jump into the deep blue water below. Not too strange, I suppose, but suddenly the cliff became a mountain, and I was in a plane flying above the mountain and I was supposed to jump into not crystal blue water, but the ocean, which was gray and choppy. The best way to describe my reaction was simply that I freaked out, jumping back from the edge of the plane and grabbing onto a hand rail (do they have hand rails in planes?) Another person jumped out in front of me, not even acknowledging my presence, which I was thankful for.

Then suddenly, because it seems everything in dreams is sudden, I was on the ground, watching the person plunge into the water, curving their body gracefully into a perfect dive. But it was no longer the ocean, and there was no mountain or cliff. It was just a diving board at a public pool, maybe 15 feet up, and the water was a clear light blue. I was shocked — both by the sudden change in scenery as well as the very apparent lack of chlorine smell — and at the same time, I understood. It all made sense to my dream-self. Of course it was just a pool. I didn't have anything to be afraid of. Even if I didn't know exactly how to dive, it wasn't that high up and I had people in front to follow and people behind to encourage me. It was so obvious, so natural, so un-frightening. My chest relaxed, I let out all the air I'd been holding in, my jaw loosened and I was at peace.

I didn't realize how metaphoric this dream would become to me — how applicable to my non-dream self — less than 12 hours later.

I'll let you know more come Thursday night.


© 2011 e.gosney

Crater Lake, Oregon


2 comments:

  1. What, what, what the heck?!! I am calling you...as soon as I can stand up.

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  2. There are two kinds of people--those who look at the future as an adventure and those who are afraid of what they don't know. I'm thinking that you are the first.
    Actually, I know that there are more than two kinds of people, but, well, you know what I mean. You will succeed because you don't let fear keep you from your potential. Did Kelsey ever get up?

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